run

been lost in my own world again.

gym used to be what dancing is to me now. or rather, it took over dance for that period.

it was my form of escape.

i had ppl i love there, ppl who loved me. believed in me. jumping just made everything seem right. and i knew if i worked hard, things would be alright.

but its all different now. it'll never be the way it was last time.

and everytime i see my juniors go off for training, i just feel so guilty. like i abandoned them.

regret. guilt.

killer emotions.

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no one will ever understand how badly i want to be over this. to move on with everything, for i know it is impossible at this point in time.

i might be idealistic, but that doesn't mean i'm stupid.

i want to go, yet i don't want to go. haha. contradicting much. or maybe i want to go, but i shouldn't go.

i'm suddenly craving OC. very badly. gah. i want the 3rd season. shall go watch season 1 that mel and anwar got me for my bday.

i could be doing much more worthwhile things, rather than sitting here staring at organic chem. this is so tiresome.

not going sch tmr. have a achey feeling in me, like i'm gonna fall sick, or maybe its just i'm so fed up and tired with everything. but shan't risk it, dance camp on friday. and doesn't hurt that tmr i have 2 hours of nair.

gp was a blur of examples and words -.-

live through this, and you won't look back. your ex lover is dead - stars

how ironically apt